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Running Away From Me: The David Allan Reeves Story

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Running Away From Me - David Allan Reeves, Barbara Reeves
Running Away From Me - David Allan Reeves, Barbara Reeves
Addiction recovery did not come easy for David Allan Reeves. From his home in a federal correctional institution, David tells his tale about his journey to hell and back.

David Allan Reeves is currently serving time at Marianna Federal Correctional Institution in Florida for numerous crimes he committed. He existed in a vortex of addictions that included a huge number of pharmaceutical drugs, heroin, methadone, ecstasy and alcohol. In the 20 years of being an active addict, the miracle is that he is alive to tell his story.

David Allan Reeves Bio

Born in 1969 in Alabama, David Allan Reeves grew up in an intact family with three brothers, Renny, Chris and Brian. He experienced what he called a normal childhood. Although he didn't like school, David enjoyed sports, running in particular, and graduated high school in 1988. In his appropriately entitled book, Running Away From Me, he recalls that at the age of 12 he felt he did not fit in and started to slip between the cracks. He studied psychology and art at the University of South Alabama and Troy State University-Montgomery.

Onset of Addictions

At the age of 14, David started to smoke marijuana with two of his two brothers. Marijuana “magnified and amplified” his enjoyment of everything. David smoked marijuana with only two of his brothers and his uncle. It wasn't long after that he witnessed his brother Brian becoming addicted to Dilaudid, but at that time, needles scared David.

When David was attending the University of South Alabama he was at a party and tried ecstasy. He felt if one small pill could make him feel that good, he was willing to try any pill. As he writes in his book, “I was now ruined, corrupted, infected. Drugs became an obsession.”

Pharmaceutical Junkie

David became obsessed with trying any pill that would make him feel good or give him an intense high. By 21 years old, he was so deep into addictions that if someone convinced him that drinking urine could get him high, he'd drink it. He lost his fear of needles from watching his brother and started shooting Dilaudid, and from there snowballed into a pharmaceutical junkie. Xanax, Lortab,Demerol, Tylox, Darvocet, Ritalin and Valium were some of his favorites.

The Addictions Roller Coaster

From this point on, David Allan Reeves did whatever it took to survive. His thoughts and actions were controlled mostly by drugs. His first attempt at coming clean was unsuccessful. He went to a methadone clinic to aid in eliminating the heroin. For David, methadone “was like trying to put out a fire with gasoline.” He remembers that once his body became accustomed to having daily methadone, the need to be “obliterated” came back with a vengeance.

As time went on, David's addictions were so intense he resorted to robbing pharmacies to get his fix, and before long, robbing banks. His last bank robbery resulted in his arrest and being shot by police. His tolerance for drugs had reached a level where it was almost impossible to sedate him from the pain of the wounds he had sustained.

Addictions Recovery

David is now four years into sobriety. He has courageously written a compelling book that may not only help an addict struggling with recovery, but it will helped those who are trying to support a loved one through addictions. This is a must-read for anyone who wants to obtain an understanding of how the mind of an addict works.

David Allan Reeves' release date is in June 2013, but he hopes for an early release in December 2012.

Running Away From Me

David Allan Reeves

Dog Ear Publishing

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Mar 30, 2010 7:11 PM
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Update from David:
Here’s an update for everyone who has read my book: I’m still incarcerated at Marianna Federal Correctional Facility in Florida.
I’ve been here two years now and expect to be released to a halfway house in December of 2012. I’ve now been in recovery for 5 years and 4 months.
Some people would say that it’s easy to not use in prison, and I would have to somewhat agree with them. But if I wanted to use right now, I would have no problem obtaining the means to achieve that end — and I do mean end. It would be the end of all my hopes and dreams and my peace of mind. It would be the end of much that I hold precious now.
Using is not an option.
My time clean hasn’t been just a dry period.
I’ve spent that time working the twelve steps, attending AA and NA meetings, participating in every drug program the prison has to offer, reading everything I can about addiction, writing about my addiction, and helping other addicts work the twelve steps.
I feel that I’ve went beyond the call of duty as far as my recovery is concerned, but I’ve not had the chance to prove that I can function in society without drugs and alcohol.
Everything will change for me when I walk through those prison gates. I imagine it will be a lot like being born again. A lot will have changed in twelve years, and I’ll be entering a much different world than the one I left in 2000.
There’s not much excitement to write about here in Marianna. It’s not the war zone that Pollock was (and still is from what I hear from the few shell-shocked inmates who have followed me here.)
Here there are no murders, no riots, no gang wars, stabbings or politics. I work in the Unicor business office as the payroll clerk for $1.40 an hour. I’m also the photographer for the recreation department on weekends.
We have a good band program here. I play bass in a jazz band and I’m attempting to teach myself classical guitar.
I still run. I will always run, barring any unforeseen injuries. It’s my meditation, antidepressant, prayer and so much more. I do my best thinking and solve all my problems on the track.
One of my goals is to run a sub 3 hour marathon, and I’m really close to achieving that before winter is over.
I’m writing everyday and trying my hand at a little fiction.
A lot of people from my past has contacted me since my book was first published, and it has been wonderfully uplifting to communicate with them.
Regrettably, some of my old friends are still using. They seem to be slowly burning out compared with my catastrophic explosion. They may never commit any crimes and find themselves in my position, but they are in prison nonetheless.
Anyone in active addiction can be just as miserable, and even more so, than someone who is in prison. Addiction is a ball and chain. You can’t go anywhere without it, and it eventually sucks the life out of you. Some faster than others.
Drugs and alcohol may be life-enhancing at first, but a line is eventually crossed, and they become life-stifling.
I’ve managed to repair a few relationships that I had ruined. Some will have to wait until I’m released, and some are irreparably damaged.
I haven’t heard from my ex-wife since I received a letter from her in the summer of 2001, a time when I was suicidal, delusional, and debilitated with dread among many other negative emotional states.
In this state of mind, I fired off some letters that I deeply regret. At the time I was incapable of seeing what I had done to her.
I traumatized her. It was unintentional, but it happened. She was collateral damage in the war I waged against myself. She handled it the only way she could. There is no right or wrong way to deal with what she did, because no one should ever have to go through that in the first place. But none of that changes the fact that I would give anything to speak to her again.
I hate the word closure, but I’ll always have a sense of these loose ends that need to be tied. But maybe it’s better this way.
Maybe I’ll always need to feel this little stab of pain and guilt to remind me of what I did, to motivate me to be a better person.
Who knows what the future may bring? Who even knows for sure what’s going to happen tomorrow? Until then, I’ll just keep writing, running, and recovering.
Jul 21, 2010 6:42 AM
Guest :
Great update from David. I'm very excited about reading his book and hearing more from him. I'm one who is living with an alcoholic and life is getting out of control. I will be going out TODAY and buying his book and getting involved with Al-anon. Thank you David!
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